Why hello! I thought I would formally introduce myself. My name is Hanna. I am turning twenty-six in about two weeks. If this surprises you, I will have you know that looking incredibly young runs in the dad’s side of my family. (My great-grandmother lived to be 103; I think my grandfather finally has all gray hair at ninety; my dad was thirty with two kids when he was asked if he was already sixteen.) I am still waiting for the day I will be grateful for this. I digress…
I am German, and my family is a multinational heap of crazy people. The six of us are German, Icelandic, Canadian, and American. You can imagine the looks we got when traveling with passports from four countries.
I am currently studying for a masters degree in Nonprofit Management and Public Governance.
My dad has been in full-time pastoral ministry for basically all my life. I grew up in a home where God was worshipped and the Bible, God’s Word, was taught. There was never a time in my life when I doubted God’s existence or denied the fact that I was a sinner in need of a Savior.
Still, I did not always understand that there was nothing I could do to earn the salvation I needed. I tried to please God by praying as much as I could. I even asked Him to forgive me of my sins – often. I remember being in my third grade Sunday school class and our teacher asked us what we would tell God if He asked us why He should allow us into heaven. Mr. K told us his answer. He recited 1 John 1:9:
If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
That’s great, I thought, now all I have to do is memorize that verse and I’m good to go. Other times I decided I would tell God to just send me to hell and by that, He would see how humble and good I was.
When I was twelve, God opened my eyes and I desperately came to Him with the knowledge that there was nothing I could do but put my trust and faith in the saving work of the Lord Jesus Christ. I repented of my sin and was saved by God’s mercy. After that, my life changed and I could testify to the work of the Holy Spirit in me. I wanted to please God because of His love for me, and I wanted to know more about Him so I could serve Him better.
Growing up was not very easy and there was a lot of immaturity left in me. I would often forget about God’s mercy and despair at my consistent sins. Some sins I did not want to let go and it weakened my relationship with God until my conscience was nearly suffocated and the Spirit grieved.
I think “coming back” to God and viewing Him in His greatness has changed my life all over again. His love is greater than my sin and failures, and all of His attributes are endless and perfect.
I live my life with this mindset, but I wouldn’t say it’s always easy because I still make mistakes and am generally very weak. Nevertheless, I lean on my Savior and know that He will carry me through.
That’s the important part about me.
I spend most of my free time (I don’t count time specifically meant for reading as free time) with my family or with my friends. I enjoy writing and used to write a lot of fiction, but that has been put on hold for an indefinite amount of time. Due to big changes, I am sorting through areas in my life and am still “discovering who I want to be” or what direction I am heading. I have plans for things I want to accomplish, but I’ll save that for another time…