Bucket List: Make Strawberry Margaritas

I am not sure whether these truly qualify as strawberry margaritas, since I had to modify the recipe a bit, but it’s the closest I have gotten and they were delicious and beautiful and contained strawberries and alcohol, so it counts.

I made these for my 27th birthday party. And they were scrumptious – did I mention that?

Bucket list. Check!

Bucket List: Try Red Hair

I got my hair did. One thing to cross off my bucket list!

Initially, I wanted it lighter and more like a strawberry blonde. I like it how it turned out¬†but if there’s not enough light, it looks kind of boring. With sufficient light – especially sunlight – it does look kind of cool though. I think I might stay red for a while (to recode genes, etc…).

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Yeah, I’m not wearing any makeup on this picture but…

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… trust me, it hardly helps. ūüėÄ

He said, “Come.”

I have vivid memories of listening to this song not long ago, lying prostrate, crying and begging Jesus to strengthen my faith. It was terrifying but I told Him to show me how to trust Him. I asked for things to do and places to go that would require complete conviction of His care for me.

It’s like Peter in Matthew 14 when he said, “Lord, if it is You, command me to come to You on the water.” People can’t walk on water.¬†Peter needed Jesus.

I said, “Lord, if it is You, command me to come to You on the water and from my harbor where I keep my sin and all the things I think I need to be happy.” People can’t free themselves from sin and be happy.¬†They need Jesus. I need Jesus.

He said, “Come.”

Since then my feet and heart have failed hundreds of times. Jesus has been holding my hand this¬†whole while¬†so I don’t drown. I’ve wanted to let go but He keeps me. My faith is petty. It’s been shaken by my seemingly unending doubt. Sometimes I don’t even want to hear Him saying, “O you of a little faith, why do you doubt? Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.”

The love and patience of my Savior astounds me. He truly is the Son of God.

Please take time to read the passage in Matthew 14. I would encourage you to be bold about trusting Jesus – not because it’s a super great feeling to leave harbors and forsake comfort; but because it is God’s glory, love and patience on display and that’s an¬†amazing thing to see.

Matthew 14:22-32

Immediately He [Jesus] made the disciples get into the boat and go before Him to the other side, while He dismissed the crowds.¬†And after He had dismissed the crowds, He went up on the mountain by Himself to pray. When¬†evening came, He was there alone,¬†but the boat by this time was a long way¬†from the land,¬†beaten by the waves, for the wind was against them.¬†And¬†in the fourth watch of the night He came to them, walking on the sea.¬†But when the disciples saw Him walking on the sea,¬†they were terrified, and said, ‚ÄúIt is a ghost!‚ÄĚ and they cried out in fear.
But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying,¬†‚ÄúTake heart; it is I.¬†Do not be afraid.‚ÄĚ
And Peter answered Him, ‚ÄúLord, if it is You, command me to come to You on the water.‚ÄĚ
He said,¬†‚ÄúCome.‚ÄĚ
So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus.
¬†But when he saw the wind,¬†he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out,¬†‚ÄúLord, save me.‚ÄĚ
Jesus immediately reached out his hand and took hold of him, saying to him,¬†‚ÄúO you of little faith, why did you¬†doubt?‚ÄĚ
 And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased. 

And¬†those in the boat¬†worshiped Him, saying,¬†‚ÄúTruly You are¬†the Son of God.‚ÄĚ

“Spirit, lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior”

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Two Quotes

‚ÄúI’ll tell you,” said she, in the same hurried passionate whisper, “what real love is. It is blind devotion, unquestioning self-humiliation, utter submission, trust and belief against yourself and against the whole world, giving up your whole heart and soul to the smiter – as I did!‚Ä̬†

‚ÄúHeaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts.‚Ä̬†

РCharles Dickens, Great Expectations

Restoring Grace

This encouraged me today –

God actually uses our sins and mistakes to [drive us out of self-confidence to trusting Him]. He employs the educative discipline of failures and mistakes very frequently. It is striking to see how much of the Bible deals with men of God making mistakes, and God chastening them for it. […]
“God can bring good out of the extremes of our own folly; God can restore the years that the locust has eaten. They say those who never make mistakes never make anything; certainly, these men made mistakes, but through their mistakes God taught them to know His grace, and to cleave to Him in a way that would never have happened otherwise. Is your trouble a sense of failure? the knowledge of having made some ghastly mistake? Go back to God; His restoring grace waits for you.

J.I Packer, Knowing God, 1973

An Introduction

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The Basics

Why hello! I thought I would formally introduce myself. My name is Hanna. I am turning twenty-six in about two weeks. If this¬†surprises you, I will have you know that looking incredibly young runs in the dad’s side of my family. (My great-grandmother lived to be 103; I think my grandfather finally has all gray hair at ninety; my dad was thirty¬†with two¬†kids when he was asked if he was already sixteen.) I am still waiting for the day I will be grateful for this. I digress…

I am German, and my family is a multinational heap of crazy people. The six of us are German, Icelandic, Canadian, and American. You can imagine the looks we got when traveling with passports from four countries.

I am currently studying for a masters degree in Nonprofit Management and Public Governance.

The Particulars

My dad has been in full-time pastoral ministry for basically all my life. I grew up in a home where God was worshipped and the Bible, God’s Word, was taught. There was never a time in my life when I doubted God’s existence or denied the fact that I was a sinner in need of a Savior.

Still, I did not always understand that there was nothing I could do to earn the salvation I needed. I tried to please God by praying as much as I could. I even asked Him to forgive me of my sins Рoften. I remember being in my third grade Sunday school class and our teacher asked us what we would tell God if He asked us why He should allow us into heaven. Mr. K told us his answer. He recited 1 John 1:9:

If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.

That’s great, I thought, now all I have to do is memorize that verse and I’m good to go. Other times I decided I would tell God to just send me to hell and by that, He¬†would see how humble and good I was.

When I was twelve, God opened my eyes and I desperately came to Him with the knowledge that there was¬†nothing I could do but put my trust and faith in the saving work of the Lord Jesus Christ. I repented of my sin and was saved by God’s mercy. After that, my life changed and I could testify to the work of the Holy Spirit in me. I wanted to please God because of His love for me, and I wanted to know more about Him so I could serve Him better.

Growing up was not very easy and there was a lot of immaturity left in me. I would often forget about God’s mercy and despair at my consistent sins. Some sins I did not want to let go and it weakened my relationship with God until my conscience was nearly suffocated and the Spirit grieved.

I think “coming back” to God and viewing Him in His greatness has changed my life all over again. His love is greater than my sin and failures, and all of His attributes are endless and perfect.

I live my life with this mindset, but I wouldn’t say it’s always easy because I still make mistakes and am generally very weak. Nevertheless, I lean on my Savior and know that He will carry me through.

That’s the important part about me.

The Rest

I spend most of my free time (I don’t count time specifically meant for reading as free time) with my family or with my friends. I enjoy writing and used to write¬†a lot of fiction, but that has been put on hold for an indefinite amount of time. Due to big changes, I am sorting through areas in my life¬†and am still “discovering who I want to be” or what direction I am heading. I have plans for things I want to accomplish, but I’ll save that for another time…